Stop Behaving that Way

“Your willingness to look at your darkness is what empowers you to change.” Iyanla Vanzant

This is the central theme behind steps 4-10. Looking for what I don’t like about how I behave opens me to the possibility to stop behaving that way. Think about it for a second. Wouldn’t it be great to always behave in a way that would make you and those that love you proud? I would. That’s why I’m on this path — to become the best me I can be. One thought, one word and one action at a time. Grateful that I’ve taken a breath in this busy life to share this moment with you. ILML!

JamieQ

I Can Breathe the Air

“Life is a celebration!” – 12 Step Prayer Book

Some days we may feel “what’s to celebrate?” Sometimes things aren’t going our way and we simply cannot find a way to understand why not. Tragedies happen. Both my mom and baby brother died and those were very, very dark days for me. But even so, I believed. This program has given me the ability to hope in the face of hopelessness. I can breathe the air. The stars are out at night. I can hear, feel, touch, see and smell. Those are miracles. Life is a celebration and I don’t want to miss a second of enjoying it. Loving life in Boston, MA! Hope you are too!

- JamesQ

Thank You God

“… face the hideous Four Horseman—Terror, Bewilderment, Frustration, Despair.” – AA p.151

Wow, I can remember those days. Awakening to wonder what happened last night. Slowly I would begin to remember and think “Oh my God”. I am forever grateful that those days are over. Of course fear occasionally does crop up, as well as disappointment, frustration and even hopelessness. But they are short lived when I use the tools. Both terror & bewilderment have all but disappeared. And instead of saying “Oh my God”, these days I say “Thank you God”. I love the program and ILML!

- James

My Monstralin Antidote

“Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster”. – Quote from Nietzsche in Courage to Change

As I am baited and my buttons get pushed, as my resolve to stay positive and restrain my tongue begins to weaken, I begin to feel the dormant human chemical I call “monstralin” release into my body. As it begins to saturate my bloodstream, I once again realize how righteous and invincible I really am. My armor becomes strong and impenetrable to the voice of reason or my Higher Power. I then wield my mighty power to decimate the feelings of others, sometimes destroying a relationship it two. I continue to go on and ruin opportunities for healing and abundance. I have become the monster I am fighting. My only hope is to diligently and consistently work a spiritual program of action. It’s my monstralin antidote. Today I’m doing the deal and hopefully will avoid becoming the monster.
ILML!

- JamesQ

I Hope They Find Serenity

“Keeping it simple means I don’t have to do ten things at once so that everyone is happy” – Courage to Change

I have a lot to do today. I wrote out a list yesterday and it was crazy. But this morning I’m still taking time to take care of myself physically, spiritually and mentally. I probably won’t get it all done, but I’ll feel a lot happier and be more successful doing those things I can get done. And for me, that’s the better way. Oh, and if others are disappointed, I hope they find serenity, because … ILML!

- James

PS. I know this one is a little cheeky.

To Control and Be Right

“Each person is like an actor who wants to run the whole show… if only people would do as he wished, the show would be great. Everybody, including himself, would be pleased. Life would be wonderful.” – AA, 60-61

Secretly, I want to control it all. I think I know best. I wish they would help me help them by just doing it my way. Sound familiar? Looking back, this desire to control and be right has been at the root of many dysfunctional interactions and relationships in my life. Today I’ll be aware when those righteous know-it-all thoughts crop up and keep my mouth closed so that I can play nice with others. ILML!

- JamesQ

Willing to Let Go

DR “Sacrifice is the art of giving of myself freely, allowing humility to replace my ego.”

My resistance to compromise or sacrifice is a distorted ego. I believe that my plan is more important than God’s will. This is obviously not the truth. Today I am willing to let go of my self-serving plan in place of a plan from a power greater than myself! iLmL

- RichieB