“I had constructed my prison with bars of self-will and self-indulgence, from which I could not escape. True escape required a willingness to follow whatever right actions were needed to turn the lock. With that willingness and action, both the lock and the bars themselves open for me. Continued willingness and action keep me free – in a kind of extended daily probation – that need never end.”
What this tells me is that without a daily reprieve, I quickly fall back to self-will and self-indulgence and I’m again not free. My addiction is always waiting for me, it never goes away and to drink is to die, so a daily plan of action is an absolute must. With willingness and action, one day at a time, I am a free man. ILML!
- Jason W
“We want to find exactly how, when, and where our natural desires have warped us. We wish to look squarely at the unhappiness this has caused others and ourselves. By discovering what our emotional deformities are, we can move forward toward their correction.”
- Daily Reflections
My “natural desires” caused myself and others a lot of pain and suffering. My best thinking is warped by alcoholism. The only solution for me has been this program. When I am accountable to my sponsor, do daily spiritual work, go to meetings, sponsor others, etc., I am put on a path to correct negative thinking. I can trust myself and others can trust me. I am able to remedy my “emotional deformities” and become the man I am supposed to be. ILML
- Jason W
“Without a HP I found in the fellowship, my life would be meaningless. I am full of gratitude to be a member of good standing in this Program.”
– Daily Reflections
In early sobriety I would’ve found this statement hard to swallow. But today I know that all of my success and serenity has come from working the program and seeking a connection to a HP. Everything I have comes from this. My connection to a HP through working the steps is the solution to my restlessness, irritability, and discontent. There is no problem too big for the steps. I am grateful to have found the solution. ILML!
- Jason W
“Storing up grievances is not only a waste of time, but a waste of life that could be lived to greater satisfaction. If I keep a ledger of “oppressions and indignities,” I’m only restoring them to painful reality.”
- A Day at a Time 3/27
I believe this means that what we focus on grows larger and becomes our reality. So, today I’m going to focus on what I do have, as opposed to what I don’t have, what I like about a person opposed to what I don’t like, how successful I am opposed to what I have not a achieved yet, etc. Positive thinking changes my perception. ILML!
- Jason W
“For us, material well-being always followed spiritual progress; it never proceeded. (p127 BB). I suddenly understood that this promise was a guarantee. I saw that it put priorities in the correct order, that spiritual progress would diminish that terrible fear of being destitute, just as it diminished many other fears. My life’s purpose is much clearer when I just work to help, not to possess.”
– Daily reflections
If I can stay humble, work a program one day at a time, and look for what I can add to the situation opposed to what I can take from it, then I live abundantly. With this change of perception I am in a place to be more successful. ILML!
“If we examine every disturbance we have, great or small, we’ll find at the root of it some unhealthy dependency and its consequent unhealthy demand. So let us, with my HP’s help, continually surrender these crippling liabilities.… May I transfer my dependency to my HP, as I understand Him.”
- A Day at a Time 3/12
This reminds me that everything that makes me uneasy has partly to do with me. The program has taught me to do daily inventories where I can always find my part in the matter. When I do this, I avoid playing the victim, and harboring resentment. I can take responsibility for myself and learn and grow. This program helps me avoid the burden of being uneasy. ILML!
“I can’t always know my HP’s will, but I can seek greater spiritual awareness every day by becoming willing to receive guidance. Faith takes practice. I will include my HP in more of my actions and decisions today.”
- Courage to Change 2/28
The only way that I know how to be open to receive my HP’s guidance is by using the tools of the program. Prayer, meditation, daily spiritual work, meetings, being of service, sponsoring and helping others, etc. By doing this work I receive his guidance and wisdom and ‘m less likely to be agitated, I live abundantly, and I can help others effectively. If my primary purpose is to help another alcoholic stay sober, then I have to receive my HP’s guidance through the work. ILML!
“When we surrender, we are no longer captives within our skins. We are actually restored to a more natural state as man in community with others, who literally cannot survive as isolated individuals. We must be part of the give and take within the group just as it has been for human beings since the beginning of time.”
- Touchstones 2/27
Surrendering myself to the program takes me out of my ego and self-interest and allows me to learn and grow. I become humble and I live a great life. When I work a daily program I escape the trap of my ego. ILML!
“‘What if’…how often we tend to see these words ourselves. Only two small words, yet how heavy laden they are with dread, fear, and anxiety. The answer to “what if…” is, plainly and simply, “don’t panic.” We can only live with our problems as they arise, living one day at a time. Am I keeping my thoughts positive?”
- A Day at a Time 2/26
When I am feeling fearful over the future, I am projecting “what if” this or that might happen. I do this often. Fear gets in the way of my progress and I always want to be progressing spiritually. This quote gives us the answer – don’t panic and stay positive. I think it’s that easy. And, having faith that my HP is making everything happen exactly as it’s supposed to when I do the work and seek a connection to Him. ILML!
“In God’s economy, nothing is wasted. Through failure, we learn a lesson in humility which is probably needed, painful though it is. How thankful I am today, to know that all my past failures were necessary for me to be where I am now.”
- Daily reflections 2/25
I was very regretful of the past for many years in recovery. But… he either is, or he isn’t. Everthing happens exactly how it’s supposed to, or it doesn’t. I choose to have faith and belief in a HP, that my failures are really my greatest successes. I wouldn’t have the great life that I have without them. ILML!