A Full, Wonderful Existence

“Ideas, emotions, and attitudes which were once the guiding forces … are suddenly cast to one side, and a completely new set of conceptions and motives begin …” Big Book p.27

This is the case for me. All of my preconceived notions were torn down and replaced by a new purpose and set of values. I went from “I want” to “how can I give, and when is it appropriate to do so”.

In giving I receive, and in allowing others to do for themselves when it’s appropriate to detach, I also receive. As a result I have a full, wonderful existence and ILML!

-JamieQ

Instead of Expectations

“Life is not a search for happiness. Happiness is a by-product of living the right kind of a life, of doing the right thing. Do not search for happiness, search for right living and
happiness will be your reward. Life is sometimes a march of duty during dull, dark days. But happiness will come again, as God’s smile of recognition of your faithfulness. True happiness is always the by-product of a life well lived.” – 24hrs a Day
Meditation For The Day

This way of perception applies to so many other aspects in life. Right action instead of expectations.

- Omair

What a Miracle

“… there has been a revolutionary change in their way of living and thinking… they found that a new power, peace, happiness, and sense of direction flowed into them.” – Big Book pg. 50

Attending meetings, working the program & opening up myself to, initially, the idea of a Higher Power, then later pursuing a loving relationship with God, has resulted in a paradigm shift for me.

By following this path I am no longer lost. I have found my direction, learned that true power is guided by love, and finally feel a consistence sense peace and happiness. What a miracle. ILML!

- JamieQ

Attention and Praise

Adapted from Until Today! “There is a need that many people struggle with for a good portion of their lives. It is the need to receive or experience the acknowledgment and acceptance of others… Beneath the need for acceptance and acknowledgement is the cry for self-love.”

Oooooooweeeeee. Some readings hit closer to home than others. This is definitely true for me. Most of my life I have vied for the attention and praise of others. Most good deeds I have done were done in hopes of acknowledgement. Even most of my responses to simple questions have been to appear wise. Today my aim is to be authentic. I’m sure the big Gee Ohh Dee will help me if I stay honest and willing. Holler! iLmL!

- RichieB

I Like That Philosophy

“The major form my complaining took was to ask, “Why me?” Healing starts when I stop asking, “Why me?” – Hope For Today

Yesterday a sober member of AA did some work for me at my house. He is a really nice guy with many years of sobriety. He doesn’t attend meetings anymore, not happy with the people and content there. He told me he lost his faith in humanity. I understand how he feels, as I have walked in those shoes.

I told him a little about my life loving philosophy, that I insist on loving life. I explained that people, places and things will never measure up to my expectations every time, and if my happiness is contingent upon people and situations doing what I want and going my way, then I will often be unhappy. That simply doesn’t work for me. So since I know I don’t have the power to get them and those events to always confirm to my will, what do I do?

I practice acceptance by exercising my spiritual muscle – getting closer to the source of my light and love. I learn to see the struggling child that just wants to be cared for behind the angry voice I hear. I recognize the days when I was practicing wrong behaviors when my creditor says, “I can’t pay you the money I owe”. I try to be understanding and have compassion. But I don’t roll over and take abuse – I am loving to myself too, and do the footwork to take care of my emotional, physical and finacial health. I practice my program so I can better weather the storms that are sure to come.

By working such a rigorous program of love, spirituality, sobriety, health, and recovery, I find myself loving life so much more often – even when things don’t go my way.

After explaining all this to him he said, “I like that philosophy”.

Thitch Nhat Hanh once said, “The miracle is not to walk on water. The miracle is to walk on the green earth in the present moment, to appreciate the peace and beauty that are available now.”

It’s my deepest hope that in some small way, while I walk this green earth, I am able to help as many others as possible to learn how to love their life just a little bit more, while they walk this green earth. I love my life.

- JamieQ

The “Stuff” was like a Drug

“I will know peace when… I make spiritual wealth a priority… I am devoted to a spirit-filled, peace-filled life…” Until Today

My priorities prior to recovery were me, me and me. I wanted to be happy. The instant fix was drugs and alcohol. But I thought what I really needed was lots of money, shiny things, the perfect girl, my own house, and more. Between my feeling-number-outers and all that stuff, surely I would find happiness.

In early AA I still thought that getting all that “stuff” would solve all my problems, and getting it (along with staying sober) was still my primary purpose.

At 10 years of sobriety I had made the money, had the fancy car, the house, the girl and a wonderful little son. But I was hitting my first big emotional bottom in recovery, so I finally found a higher power and began a tentative relationship with God. However, my priorities were still materially based.

At 15 years of recovery, I hit my second emotional bottom and I knew I was whipped. Something had to change. That’s when I finally made it into the rooms of AlAnon. And that’s where I began to understand the concept of humility, putting the program and my service to others ahead of the “stuff”.

I discovered that the “stuff” was like a drug or drink, in that my satisfaction was short lived. But the program and service left me with a lasting feeling of self-esteem and happiness. The more time I spent communicating with my higher power on a really deep level, the more I trusted that everything is exactly as it should be, even when it didn’t go my way (sometimes especially when It didn’t).

Today, at 32 years in recovery, my priorities are to stay sober, work my program in all my affairs, and help others to the best of my ability. Putting these things first results in me being a pretty nice guy. The result of that is that I get along much better with others. My family life is great. I’m happy and successful in my work. And little by little abundance continues to flow into my life, in every area. I now find the world much less hostile, I have ceased fighting, and finally I’m at peace and ILML!

- JamieQ

I Walked Through the Pain

“(there is) no unhappiness too great to be overcome.” Big Book pg. 104

In recovery I’ve been broke, had my mom and baby brother pass away, my car repossessed, lost two homes, went through a divorce, and was diagnosed with a terminal brain tumor. Sounds bad, right? It was.

Yet here I stand today happy as I’ve ever been. How? Because I leaned on my program, Higher Power and others in the rooms for help. I walked through the pain, sorrow and fear, then made it to the other side.

Today I know it works no matter what, and because of that I love the program and ILML!

- JamieQ