Filled to the Brim

“In recovery, we learn that it is important to identify what we want and need. The next step is letting go… Sometimes I even have to go to the point of saying “… I realize its important to me, but … I’m going to be absolutely happy without it and without any hope of getting it, because hoping to get it is making me nuts.”… We often can have what we really want and need, or something better. Letting go is part of the what we do to get it” – The Language of Letting Go

This reading reminds me clearly that I’m only in charge of the footwork, not the results. Waiting, hoping and praying for the result I think is best for me (and sometimes others) makes me unhappy. It’s actually an expectation which, if unmet, will cause a resentment. That’s why surrendering works so well. There’s a prayer called Letting Go in the 12 Step Prayer Book. In it, the person praying surrenders their broken dreams to God, but eventually snatches them back, crying “How can you be so slow?”. To which God replies “My child, what could I do? You never did let go.” In other words, pretending to turn it over with the secret desire of hoping to get what I want doesn’t work either!

But here’s the amazing news: When I choose to remember and believe that my HP has my back and knows what is best for me – that what I get and DON’T get is perfectly designed for me to have a life beyond my wildest dreams – then my faith allows me to fully surrender and make room for all the good stuff that’s trying to come into my life. This is my experience, and I have a life filled to the brim (overflowing actually) with good stuff to prove it! ILML

Room for Improvement

“One must not hold one’s self so devine as to be unwilling occasionally to make improvements in one’s creations…We addicted and codependent men too often feel ashamed of our mistakes. It pains us to admit there is room for improvement in what we have done.- Touchstones Meditations for Men

This is exactly how I’ve been feeling since losing focus on my program and that I must change my routine to be truely happy. I thank my HP for blessing me with the strength to continue and reach out to others. ILML today! -Nic

The Boulder

“My Higher Power never makes mistakes”. – You Can’t Make Me Angry p.37

A boulder in my path can be an insurmountable obstacle that ruins my life – something I think about long after I’m forced to take a new path. Or it can be a great opportunity to enrich my life by broadening my horizons. Perhaps the new path takes me out of my comfort zone, but the rewards could be amazing, if my eyes are open to them. Today if life throws me a curve ball, I won’t duck – I’ll hit it out of the park! ILML – James

The Best Possible Scenario

“It is only when I have experienced enough emotional pain, through failed attempts to fix myself, that I become willing to surrender to God’s will for my life. Surrender is like the calm after the storm. When my will is in line with God’s will for me, there is peace within.” Drop the Rock, p77

This has to be true for me or I am not at peace. Several things lately have made me upset and unhappy. I have to believe that these circumstances are put in my life for nothing less than the best possible scenario for having an amazing life. It’s difficult to see that sometimes; but when I do, I always love my life.

Thank You

Thank you for another day, the chance to live, to feel, for happiness that comes from giving, for friends and peace and the morning sun. Thank you again God for another day.”- Adapted from 12 Step Prayer Book

This simple, beautiful message reminds me that just by virtue of being alive today I have been given the opportunity to celebrate so many wonderful things. I choose to focus on the abundance of blessings before me, instead of what my disease would tell me to think about (unmet expectations in me, my life and others around me). In turn, my life is epically amazing and I’m the luckiest man I know. ILML :)

The God Line

“Discouragement is a warning signal that I may have wandered across the God line. The secret of fulfilling my potential is in acknowledging my limitations and believing that time is a gift, not a threat. May I always remember that the power within me is far greater than any fear before me. May I always have patience, for I am on the right road.” – Drop the Rock – pg 70

Good reminder for me. I often think I have to make up for lost time, being I was lost in my addiction for so many years. I have found patience and serenity through working the steps which has allowed me to regain what I had and receive what I never thought I could have. This happens only when I seek a HP and find the power within me, work steps, and live by these principles. When I don’t, I’m discouraged, back to fighting the universe. I have to work for my daily reprieve. Ilml!! – Jason

Swamp Thing

“Self-pity is an enticing swamp. Sinking into it takes so much less effort than hope, or faith, or just plain moving.” – Living Sober, p. 56

The level of my self-pity is inversely proportional to the spiritual work that I do on a daily basis: meetings, journaling, being of service, meditation, prayer…. grateful not to be a Swamp Thing today. Love your life! – Roozbeh