Rediscovering My Wonderfulness

“The AA program is a program of Uncovering, Discovering and Discarding.” – A New Pair of Glasses

This process of peeling the layers of ourselves to get back down to our heart, where love exists, is an ongoing adventure into discovering myself. The more I am open to seeing my part, and ceasing to think, say and do things that cause unhappiness, the better chance I have for living the greatest life possible. I want to be a great man, with all my heart. To do that requires bravery to look at myself and search for ways to evolve into a more loving person every day. When I’m determined to be courageous in the pursuit of rediscovering how I can be more wonderful, ILML!

– JamieQ

Pure Unadulterated Love

“To forgive means to refrain from… demanding satisfaction for an offense… to grant pardon without harboring resentment.” – A New Pair of Glasses

As long as I’m upset about the behavior of someone else, I have not forgiven them. The result is not so much that they will be punished, but rather that I will stay in misery until I am able to let go of my hurt feelings, and forgive them entirely, replacing my upsettedness with love. This is not always easy, it frequently takes a lot of work. But no great achievements in life can be accomplished without a determined effort of exertion. Today I will take an honest look at every person in my life and ask myself if there are any whom I have not forgiven. Then I will make a concerted effort to forgive each and everyone of them, filling my thoughts of them, and wishes for them, with pure unadultared love. When I do this, without any reservations, ILML! 

My Ups and Downs

“… erratic emotions victimized us often… we had to drop the word “blame” from our speech and thought.” – Daily Reflections

The medical profession defines Bipolar as a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in mood, energy and activity levels. Well, I guess we are all bipolar to some extent. Escaping from erratic emotions is as impossible as never blaming others or ourselves for anything anymore. By nature we are emotional — sometimes mildly, other times extremely. Many doctors treat this with medication rather than meditation, which, in extreme cases where our behavior is destructive, irreversible, and/or a physical danger to ourselves and others, may be necessary. However, for people like me, a much better solution is consistently and diligently working a daily set of actions which promotes emotional and spiritual balance in my life. When the daily deal ceases to become option, but rather becomes a regular part of my daily living, my ups and downs are less extreme, last for shorter durations, and ILML! 

– JamieQ

Being Sober Rocks

Sometimes I have these moments of pure awareness of how grateful I really am to be sober. Being in AA and more specifically, being in recovery, has allowed me to have strength to be true to myself. 

Today I got to be of service, pray, meditate, listen, learn, care, love, be kind, eat well, take a nap and experience many other things which never used to be important to me. I love myself and my life today because of The Spirit of the Fellowship and because of a vital spiritual experience that has brought me a higher power. 

Being sober rocks and being aware of how much it rocks makes me happy, joyous and free. I am comfortable in my skin and comfortable not being perfect. I’ve never had that before and for that I am grateful.

– Adam 

Today I Trust Myself

“When you have to convince yourself that what you see, what you feel, what you think is not true… you could get into a lot trouble!” – Until Today

Occasionally we find ourselves in a situation where we know instinctively that things aren’t right, that they need to change, and if they don’t, we need to leave. That inner voice is our Higher Power. It wants the best for us. Sometimes, someone else attempts to convince us that our perception is wrong, that we are wrong, and that everything is ok. At those moments we have a choice: listen to our intuition or deny what we know is true, and pay the price. We’ve all done this before and it always ends up in more hurt. The next time I’m uncomfortable and know things must change, I’ll believe myself and get into action. Because when I’m spiritually fit, emotionally healthy, and I trust myself, ILML! 

– JamieQ

Gossiping Less. Praising More. 

“Gossip … has its satisfactions for us, too.” – 12& 12 “… gossip, laughter at the expense of other people…” – AA Big Book

The tendency to want to talk about someone to another person is strong. In fact, oftentimes it’s the social glue that exists in many relationships. Of course, saying nice things about others that they wouldn’t mind us discussing isn’t gossip.  But if we really stop to think how we would feel if a bunch of people were sitting around, talking about us, not nice things mind you, but about our struggles, character defects and problems, we would be less apt to continue gossiping. Trust me, I’m not perfect – I still have trouble resisting the urge to gossip sometimes. But the program encourages me to try and stop acting in ways that hurt others.  So each year, I gossip less, and praise others more. And as long as I continue to practice our principles, and try to be the best man I can be each day, ILML! 

– JamieQ

Playing Well with Others

“Prior to my coming into A.A., I knew of no place that could teach me how to become a person among persons.” – Daily Reflections

What grade do they teach us how to have healthy relationships with others? How to fit in to the world about us and feel comfortable? When do they give us the course on how to handle life’s ups and downs and cope with the feelings that result? The answer is never. Not in grade school, middle school, high school or college. So how is it that people figure it out? Some, I guess, are lucky and just get it. Others, like me, turned to ganja, booze and drugs to cope. It was only in the rooms of AA and Alanon that I was finally taught how to love life on life’s terms, to have healthy relationships and finally feel comfortable in my own skin. If only everyone else knew how much our programs and the fellowship we share have to offer them, the whole world would be sharing in our gratitude. Indeed, we are so very lucky. ILML! 

– JamieQ