“Our desires, our wants, and our anxieties are spiritual issues. What at first we think we want may only hide deeper, more vulnerable, and painful feelings. When we admit the deeper fears and desires, we move closer to the spiritual truths of our lives.” – Touchstones 9/26
I like how this says that our wants may very well be not at all what we need to live a better life. I think a lot of times that my desires are based upon fear and, like the quote says, they are an attempt to escape deeper, vulnerable, and painful feelings. Today I want to let go of everything that I want and leave it up to my higher power to lead me to what I need. In order for me to do this I must be connected to my higher power through my daily spiritual work and the tools of the program that have been given to me. Today I am staying close to my HP and living happy, joyous, and free. ILML!
“When we hold loosely to our daily plans, we are more open to knowing the will of our higher power. Then each day is a spiritual process. It becomes a combined creation of our higher power and our own consciousness.”– Touchstones 8/4
My self-will wants to have everything planned out how I think it should be to get what I want. But I now know after years of being sober and working this program that my best plan is not the best plan. If I got everything that I wanted I would very likely be in big trouble. When I stay close to my higher power through the tools of this program I am able to relax and take the next right indicated action. The tools of the program such as praying/meditating, spiritual reading and writing, meetings, etc. allow me to be open to my higher power. When I let go and let my higher power guide me, I live happy, joyous, and free; I am open to abundance and I become exactly who I am supposed to be. Today I’ll relax and know that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. ILML!
“The repeated challenge in our spiritual life is to leave the secure trappings we know and take comfort in the still unknown new self. That is the leap of faith. We take the risk and trust something will be there for us. We have faith that letting go of our immediate attachments will bring us to a better place, that God will be there for us.” – Touchstones 7/30
Though I want and strive for material possessions every day through hard work and my drive to succeed financially, I know that my spiritual life makes everything worthwhile no matter what I have materially. This program has allowed me to confront my ego, as it says in another part of this reading, and allow me to find humility.
My ego is strong and prevents me from experiencing the sunlight of the Spirit. It tells me I need to look like this, have this much money, buy this or that and be impressive on the outside.
When I take care of myself spiritually through the tools of the program we have been so generously given, I open myself up to abundance which includes material things in my life. But whether I have them or not, if I stay connected to my higher power on a daily basis I can live happy, joyous, and free no matter what my life looks like on the outside. I am going to do the work today and stay in the solution. ILML!