The Luckiest Man in the World

… he stands at the edge of new mysteries, joys, and experiences of which he had never even dreamed.” 12&12, p.110

I can tell you this. I’ve slept in abandoned cars. In empty homes. In jail. In a mental hospital. On a beige rug with fleas so thick it looked black. In my vomit. In a closet. And those aren’t even the really bad places. When I remember that, my life is so far beyond any dream I ever had. That’s why I tell people I truly believe that I’m the luckiest man in the world. Thank you God, AA, AlAnon,  and AlAnon. ILML! 
– JamieQ

Every Ounce of my Heart

“… let me sow love.” – 12 Step Prayer Book

I’ve discovered that in order to most effectively do this, I have to start by growing and nurturing the way I love myself. Once I came to a point where I really loved being me, and learned how to support that on a daily basis, I found that deeply loving others without being codependent was easy. Today I have many Sponsees and a Sponsor that I love with every ounce of my heart, and their love for me blesses me a thousand times over. ILML! 


My True Motives

“To detach … means I love myself enough to stay out of others’ insanity.” – Hope For Today 

This is a great page. It speaks to the place my head gets into when I confuse caring with attempting to fix, control, or change another. It reminds me that ‘Being helpful and kind’ is great, provided that, in my divine righteousness, I am not being kind and helpful in order to get them to do what I think is best.  Today I’ll let others behave as they wish, I’ll help if asked, detach if it’s toxic, stay connected to God and try to be the best James I can be today. ILML! 

– JamieQ


Restored to Emotional Health

“… practicing these Steps, we had a spiritual awakening…” – 12&12 p. 109

I like the words “spiritual awakening.” At first I thought the concept was just a cliche we use in the rooms. Today it implies that I’ve recognized that I’m disconnected from my higher power – that sense of peace, love and comfort I crave – and feel the desire to plug back in. 

As the quote states it takes some actual actions – or work – to reconnect. I do this by using the tools of the program, including my rituals, prayer, meditation, the steps, fellowship and meetings. Through consistently committing time and energy to this practice I am restored to emotional health, and best of all, once again, ILML! 


“… follow your own inner guidance…” – Until Today

This morning at Starbucks, while doing my daily life-loving rituals, I came across this phrase and was struck by the idea that these days my higher power, aka God, is my inner guidance. It’s the voice that directs me in ways that improve my life and circumstances, and often those of people around me. So why not have some fun and change the spelling of guidance just a bit? Today I’ll let loose, listen to the music of my heart, and “follow my own inner God-Dance!”ILML! 


Courage and Tenacity

“Our inventory enables us to settle with the past.” 12&12, p.89

We can easily turn this around and say “If we would like to be released from the resentments, shame, hurt, sorrow and frustrations of our past, take an inventory.” Will an inventory really do this? Absolutely! My experience is that when I have the courage and tenacity to take an inventory as outlined in our program, followed by steps 5-9, I ALWAYS feel better. I’m so grateful for having discovered the secrets to happiness on a daily basis in the steps, and… ILML! 

– JamieQ

Stop Blaming Others

“Driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity, we step on the toes of our fellows and they retaliate.” – Big Book of AA

When I’m having difficulties with someone else, chances are I’m part of the problem. Am I in fear or making things bigger than they are? Am I trying to get my way or do I feel victimized. If I can answer yes to any of these, there is a solution: Find my part. Admit it. Make amends. Get connected to God. Then be of service. When I stop blaming others long enough to work my own program, I can get back to the business of loving life a lot sooner. And for me that’s very important, because each day it’s me deep desire that ILML! 

– JamieQ