The insidious insanity of the disease of alcoholism is troubling and fear creating. 

At times it strikes so hard and fast and lasts for an incredibly long time. There is a knot in my stomach and my brain is whirring a thousand miles an hour but is not connected to any gears – like the pedals of a bicycle with a broken chain. 

What can I do about this feeling?
The choices are numerous. The quickest and easiest route to finding serenity again for me is prayer. A moment of meditation followed by a quick simple acknowledgment of the feeling also settle me and slow my disconnected brain down. 

I can also talk to another alcoholic, my sponsor or write about it. Often I can find solace in the literature and slogans. 
Am I hungry, angry, lonely or tired?
These are all “suggestions” that the program offers up for an alcoholic like me to take. 

One thing that I do know is that the sooner I identify the problem, find a solution and apply the action, the sooner I can find the serenity I gave back to my disease and the sooner I can LOVE MY LIFE!!!

– AdamW